I know porn is addictive because I used to watch a lot of it. But what I didn't consider before is a few things,

Is it really consensual?
What age are these people?
Has there been sex trafficking involved?

Recently I watched a video about an individual that had been trafficked and recently had it proved in court, the video is below. Please watch it to learn the truth and please share it around.

So life happens!

I have decided to open up, be honest and be vulnerable about my experiences. I'm doing this because it has helped me in the past to hear others doing the same.

I have experienced first hand threats of violence, actual violence, psychological abuse, near death experiences. What has happened from that is that I have experienced several things,

 - Anxiety
- Social Anxiety
- Panic Attacks
- Depression
- PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder)
- Insomnia
- Flashbacks
- Dissociation
​- Sleep Paralysis

What I wish I knew years ago is that others have experienced these things too. And also that there is things we can do.

I have tried most of the list above, and have found improvements along the way.

I have been seeing councillors, therapists and clinical psychologists for around 17 years. What I can say is that some have helped. And even if they didn't, I never really lost anything by trying. 

​At one point I found that the panic attacks happened a lot and were taking over. One tool that really helped me was grounding techniques (or what I describe as a PTSD kit). I have a set of photos, mantras, grounding techniques that live in my wallet, so that I can use them whenever needed.

Here are some that you can use yourself,
Site 1- ​https://library.sheffieldchildrens.nhs.uk/grounding-techniques/

​Site 2 - https://www.healthline.com/health/grounding-techniques#bonus-tips

These 2 pdfs are also really helpful.

I had the opportunity to speak at London Vegfest for the first time.

https://london.vegfest.co.uk/

As I said in the talk all of my slides are available below!!